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Saturday, July 31
5:14 pm

I paid my price with my pride

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played a match with cres today.
we won 2-0 ! means we can get into semi !
cool. playing the another one on 6th aug.
but its on the desaaru trip day.
so it will be a little rush.

nowadays dont really know wht to blog abt.
theres so much to say
but i dont knw how to put it. :|
yarr. i sudd miss someonealot !
i regretted so much come to think of it.
only whn im bitten i know whts shy
shittified. why why why
rahh-

you are the only one in my heart now

sickening.
and its ann-maries's b'day today !
happybirthday !
you rock my socks girl.
and treasure this day cause its only once in a yr
yupp ! (:

i have too much pride in me
tht made me lose the courage
to speak out loud the love i have for you
but you are at the other world
completely involved in a wrld of your own
not caring abt me
but i dont care
if only you are happy
i will do anythng

is my price cleared ?
if it is,
why am i still feeling heart broken ?

;my saviour; he's in me

Wednesday, July 28
8:45 pm

love is wht makes you smile whn you're sad

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st nicks got double champ ! (:
not tht i am very happy abt it.
its just tht .. long story i guess.
tmr is quart-finals alr !
against yuhua.
damn freaking scary larh.
hope the first 11 wont freak out so much.
esp jingyu abigail and rui !
main - scorers ! (:
jiayou ! must tryour very VERY best !

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sch was quite relaxing tday.
soo sad huiyu didnt come.
got flu. well, get well soon !
pe was so fun.
but last day of netball.
next week is table tennis.
eng was so boring. always.
thn hist was very interesting.
thn blah blah ..
went to drama studio whn the rest
of the whole sec went to support track.
was very fun. vrybody was happy (:
so cool. slack was traning.
did not do anythng heavy cause tmr is comp.
yarr. thts all. went northpoint to get pokk glove.

(:

happy //

;my saviour; he's in me

Monday, July 26
4:43 pm

+ look for the girl with the broken smile ]

home early today ! (:
moring assembly sucks today
i was so tired alr ?
and they still made us say the cheer
likke i will say. :|
and sch was ok.
played the com mini-organ !
so cool. (:
sci teacher left halfway
so went to find meixian
to return her the geog book.
but it turned out somethng happened ..
ohwells. she sought it out alr.
lunch with loo. talk alittle (:
thn went home with audrey and siewmin.

and i found out tht domeone
likes to go arnd bithcing ppl in
their own guestbk or tagboard
they are so damn free and not
brave enough to say their name lahh.

hiaz. :/

suppose to be studying now since
the whole week im busy.
but no mood lahh.

dun knw. think im going to
change my layout agn.
soon maybe. ^this is such a short entry.

;my saviour; he's in me

Wednesday, July 21
10:14 pm

/ found tht vrythng was a fantasy
and you were a past ]

i think

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dont really have the mood to blog
but got nothing to do. -sheesh
perhaps i am jealous or sumthng.
but i dont have the right to ?
maybe i shld just relax
like wht louisa said

havent do lots of stuff
and friday got competition ! (:
hurr. played table tennis today during pe
was so damn fun !
me and abi was like crazy ?
too high adi. cant tell
cause it sounds really stupid.
but thngs got boring during eng lessons.
i don knw why i do some thngs
tht are not reasonable ?
maybe i had let my heart rule my head /

-

;my saviour; he's in me

Tuesday, July 20
6:14 pm

/ why shld I even bother ]

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just whn i thought i
cld live without you
i came to know abt somethng
and i cld hear a sound of glass breaking
it was like a sword piercing
through my heart

i thought maybe if i tried not to see you
all the feelings will evaporate
but to no avail
i thought if as a teating
tht if i pretented not to care
you would notice my presence
but i was wrng
you did not even once turn arnd and look
at how i was doing or how i am
now i know
tht actually all the little thngs
i did to help you smile
was going down the drain
whn u wake up the next morning
you completely forgotten vrythng
memories of my help was not even there
only the moments with her
will stay eternity-ly

i thought if i stay by ur side u wld notice me
and gave me a moment of ur time
but it turned out
to be wishful thinking of my part
all i know is
you do not care abt me

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photo taking during recess
haha / we took so longg to take 2 photos
cause its digital cam ?
so not nice thn keep taking
but it was funn ! (:
went j8 with loo !
ate KFC. saw mdm lim and mrs [forgott] here.
bought a pair of earrings and rubberbands !
saw lotts of others cool stuff
but no money. :/
saw amanda and yanling there.
this amanda say i follow her larh
so funny. like nothing to do like tht.
but really fate leh
vrywhere also met her
haha. i can go DESARU !
(: yippee ! mama allow.
andand name*-
i dun want to guess who you are ?
cos i really got no clue.
yarr. u are not extraa larh.
but if i knw you very well one thn you
shld just leave ur name and not rao yi da quan
yarr. so tell me hu are you kae ?
waiting for ur next entry ! (:

;my saviour; he's in me

Monday, July 19
4:52 pm

/ without you where do i belong ]

in jean's hse now !
haha. watching hai tun wan lian ren
so damn nice.
but sorry LORRAINE !
cld not go because mum dun allow but im
here because its just near my hse
so yarr -
Sorry ! really sorry.

today was so boring.
hia. there were no interesting lesson.
recess also got monitor meeting.
after sch came strng here.

sudd im seem at a lost of wrds.
i dun knw wht to say larh.
butbut , i have learned to control
myself and not let my heart rule my mind.
yupp. (: and name* haven reveal itself.
:)

- happy

:)

;my saviour; he's in me

Sunday, July 18
2:05 pm

talk to me ;
thts wht my love is here for
cant stand to see
those tears in ur eyes
i'll do anythng it takes
to make it right
baby ..
talk to me ;
even if its just a say goodbye

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never been here like nearly a week
did not have the time
was chilling all day today.
YSTD
traning in the morning.
Mr Ng bought for us tau hui ! (:
ate lunch in sch with yuai.
went to have a haircut.
now i find its nicer.
alittle shorter at the back.
but its cooler.
went back and slept all the way till 6+
ate dinner. watch a movie at home.
went bck to slp.

Ystd the Ystd ; friday
sch was a total freak.
i totally screw up my sci test.
and i already failed my previous one.
i think im gonna fail agn.
- boohs. failure
guess i think i shld study harder.
thn had trng.
went to yuai hse.
and .. i wana thnk ruiyin !
although she will not see it.
but wana thnk her for letting me bit her !
and she made me cry and all tht. /
really needed it. had kept it inside for so long.
wanted to bursted it all out.
thn went to watch qihang
-quite nice.

-

i think i hld not be so lovesick and vrythng adi.
shld get a life.
yupp.

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sometimes gdbye though it hurts in ur
heart is the only way for destiny ;
sometimes gdbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me ;
and its the hardest thng to say ,
ill miss ur love in every way
so say gdbye
but dont you cry
cause true love never dies

-sure

-

(:

;my saviour; he's in me

Monday, July 12
4:48 pm

i keep hoping tht you wld look at me

have been thinking all day.
finally came to a thought of giving up.
and continue to lead on with life.
yupps ! hmm .. chenlaoshi did not come today.
she was sick. but during her lesson.
our class was so noisy tht zhanglaoshi
from next door had to come and scold us.
but tht did not help as ..
1 truth is hopeless ! :)
i like it tht way. so wht if we are the noisiest
we are more united tht way !

science changed to biology today.
woo rahhs men ! getting tired of phyics.
but bio talked abt cells and vrythng.
not tht nice. quite boring.
yupp. have competition tmr.
but cannot come out of class early. :(
hmm. yarr. lyk tht lorh.
eating cookies now ! delicious. yum-yum !
haha. :)

-
am i thinking too much ?

;my saviour; he's in me

Sunday, July 11
11:14 pm

hehh. i decided not to tell you !
cause you dun even care abt me [?]
but thn i keep thinking abt ..
maybe i shld just forget u.
and get on with life.
maybe im stubborn or whtever but
you used me and vrythng.
i dont even knw why i hesitate abt telling you anot.
so wht if life is short.
i dont knw. maybe i shld just end my life now.
.. wht the heck am i talking abt ?
because of you ? no kidding.
i am SO self convicing myself now.
i am jealous larh.
but you really dont even give a damn look
at me so why shld i care or even love you.

;my saviour; he's in me

time is running out
shld i tell you how i really feel ?
if i dun , i knw i will hv regrets
but i am scared of rejection
thinking of you all day
make me hesitate
shld i tell you
or shld i wait ?

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i really dont knw wht to do

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watch spiderman 2. dvd of course.
so nice ! -learnt tht life is short
hmm. got me thinking all day.
went lot 1 ltr
bought new sch shoes !
saw the charity show today.
so poor thng.
hias. and thn they keep saying
life is very short.
i knw tht its true and the whole day
all the shows say life is short
and we shld not have regrets.
are they hints ?<
telling me to do wht i am supposed to do ?
but i am scared of hurt.
i really am confused !
and name* haven reply me yet.
boohs. been waiting for the reply.
aiyah / so confused

;my saviour; he's in me

Saturday, July 10
10:21 pm

Will you give me a chance to care for you ?

forgotten to add a few thngs on my blog these few days.
firstly, i changed places !
its ok larh. sitting with florence was not as bad as daphne !
so now im sitting at the first row third row.
beside the window. florence's beside me and denise behind.
i like to sit by the window !
so cool lorh. can wave to ppl but it can be distracting ..
but thn the clinque have split to vrywhere.
caiyi- two rows behind me
huiyu- second row at the back.
daphne- third row at the back. beside huiyu
abi- second row same row as me.
e-main- last row at the back
loo- last row same row as me and abi.
yupps ! like tht.
and during the bus trip ystd.
the bus uncle was damn nice !
-grins at jingyu. haha

today had traning at nyp.
woke up so late !?
ask mum to send me to mrt.
thn went dwn to khatib and jingyu came in but at diff places
so met at yck.
saw meixian and yuai.
waited for the rest thn went tog.
the not playing team which means us
played with coach other sch.
-tanjong katong.
all the boys all p4 5 lk tht knw !
so cute and i like num 28. but yuai lyk 6.
abi and audrey lyk num 2o.
haha. but we won gainst them.
thn went j8 with yuai amanda winnie
for lunch. ate chicken rice.
thn went to my ahma's hse.
but thn my mama and sister were at aunt hse so went there.
so shiok. on the air-con and watched maid in mahattan.
so nice the show ! romantic.
ate a bowl of fish head noodle. arnd 3 plus
was hungry larh. but thn was so full.
came home ltr. thn ..
changed my layouts !
haha. its grey and white now !
with alittle green. love it alot.
quite nice. yarr. thts all ! (:

;my saviour; he's in me

Friday, July 9
11:11 pm

INVASION -

hoho ! guess who's here ?
i bet you knw who. hehh
anyhows, i told you il blog for you !
cos im really bored ?
and, i dontknww.
dontknww wht to blog for my own yet.
so im here to crap. great right :)

anyhows, YOU JUST TALKED TO ME ONLINE !
okays tht's not wht im trying to sayy.
hmm oh. it's about the unknown person in your gbk.
haha, why vreone ard us the same one.
concern us but dont leave name ?
so weirddd /: you mei you ?
ohwells i dontknw wht im saying laa.

eeks. you knw, i really think somebody is so - !
i r r i t a t i n g .
blahs, maybe im being mean. hurrs
sighh i dontknw. maybe i should just be nice.
smile whn i see her and never ever bitch about her !
should i ? -shows an innocent face.
yesyes, i guess i should, -nodds.
seriously. hahaha

the brownie on my display pic look damn :) !
yummilicious great chocolatey looking brownie.
whees ! :) madness

ahhs ! im totally crapping here.
shitoes, sorrys ! hoho :D

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okays, so im taking my leave now.
dontknw wht else to sayy laa.
dont miss me alrights ? i knw you will.
i unstd but .. haha ! il see you tmr.
rem to train hard, cos snHOCKEY gonna fight hard this year.
yayys, and prove vreone wrong !

haha and i hope youre and and stay fine okays ?
LOVE ! :D

-pok

;my saviour; he's in me

I want to forget you is because i love you too much

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heyy ! today hai man hao de.
yupp. but one sick thng is got scolded by gwee !
and is ~~not~~ our fault [?]
wht the hell man.
anyways, thn no common test but meanddie
was rushing to do the jian bao.
so funn lorh ! thnks for those who help !
loveyouuguyys. and training was ..
cool. yupps. thn went macs and northpoint.
with jingyu of course. :)
and ..
want to thnk eleanor and name*
thnks for cheerring me on ![?]
yarrs ! and even though i do not knw who are you
but wnt to thnk you ! hope you can tell me who you are ?
u stood up for me tht time too !
haha. thnks anyways.
reveal urself ! okayy. im lame.
well bye thn !

;my saviour; he's in me

Wednesday, July 7
10:45 pm

feeling lost of vrythng

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dont knw why i still carry on.
and now most of the times ppl arnd me feel so happy.
but thn i feel so uneasy.
and whn im high
they say im disgusting.
dont knw whts wrng with ppl nowadays.
i try so hard to accomodate to their feelings but yet
... i myself in the end feel so sad.
stupid me ! im suppose to make ppl happy
yet im feeling sad myself.
wht the ..
hmms. guess i must be strng from now on
like the pu dao weng.
and let the ppl arnd me be happy
thn tht way i will be happy [?]
i guess so. i dont knw larh.

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i like today !
some of it.
andand today's traning was quite gd for me !
haha. -grins
today me and florence was like totally aughing loudly
in maths lesson. and did not care abt mrs fung ?
haha. but act she is a nice teacher ?
yarr. dun knw why they dun lyk her.
and i found out a therory ..
if the unusual ppl are happy,
you wont knw whether is fake or real.

-

;my saviour; he's in me

Monday, July 5
10:35 pm

I will be by ur side

hmms. today is great ![?]
yupps. in the beginning actually.
met loo at bugis mrt.
went to the shops there.
saw lots of nice stuff.
but thn no money to buy.
shop for lots of places to look for the thng i wanted.
and finally there was one shop which had tht thng.
but it was pretty tiny but nvm.
it was quite cute to me but it was act to buy for sumone
-looks at tht person
hope she likes it !
it suppose to have alot of meaning in it.
kae. thn two of us went bubble tea shop.
bought a drink and talk about our deepest secrets !
i told mine knw. not all know.
i went first thn her. also said alot of gross stuff.
thn went to plaza sing to meet huiyu.
act wanted to watch a movie but thn out of stock.
so we went to eat first. ate pizza ut.
and i learnt how to drink ice lemon tea.
even the waitress laugh ! hahas.
thn after tht took a cab to great wrld.
wanted to watch movie but the tics were also sold out.so .. we gave up the plan in the end.
so we wanted to take a free shuttle bus to city hall
but thn we waited forr so long the bus haven come.
so in the end we took cab to raffles. thn we went to the hair shop
and we had so much fun with the chopsticks.
after tht we went our seperate ways and i went to look for seniors
wanted to give jingyu sumthng so waited with her till traning ends.
slept during waiting. thn went to eat dinner
with laura jingyu rui teresa. bought carrot cake.
and they crapped so much during dinner.
tht the sad jingyu also had to smile.
thn took mrt with jingyu.
here is also another exciting part :
whn we took the mrt .. we sat at the back.
thn we listened to jingyu discman.
after awhile more ppl came in so we squeesed alittle.
thn there was these two jin fu yin fu in front of us.
they kept staring at us like guo yan gan ren di
u knw ? so irritating and fucking shit.
thn the girl abit not act chio and poor thng larh.
keep making her hair till i think it already falling of arh.
i think jingyu is the poor thng one lorh.
sat nearer to her oh-so-white legs
which is such a bad omen for the eyes.
and no matter wht we did they keep staring. [?]
lyk wht the hell. and whn the door opens at bradell.
we had to stand up so whn we standing up ..
they keep staring at us also.
abit not the girl looking at me from head to bottom thn the
guy look at jingyu from head till bottom also.
and whn we werre hearing the discman still ,
the guy scolded us 'bitch' !
he said it like chao loudly but too bad he cant beat the discman
we/i pretened not to hear. thn we were thinking
the girl sitting tht time look at us lyk we very short
thn stand up not i taller thn her. and if ruiyin was there
she taller thn the boy i tell you !
we suspected tht they keep looking at us
cause we were too irresistable [?]
haha. jealous larh tht girl. and the guy's head so small man.
they sure break up one arh.
so fucking irritating u knw.
shit them arh. lian gou dou bu ru
and the mrt sooo cold knw !
until arh mus cover urself up like bun lyk tht.
and mus touch here and there make urself warm.
at the middle of the night come and disgusting.
hiaya. these ppl do not need my mentioning.
and too white not healthy larh.
still wana show off. pls lorh.
aiyah. dun wana tok abt them adi.
onlly spoil my mood .. so bye thn !

;my saviour; he's in me

I think abt you all the day

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i want to help you but you never give me a chance

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the day has been .. boohs. /
hiayah. but now i fully appreciate the colour of grey !
hahas. and frogg is not tht bad aft all.
had match ystd.
and we won ! by 12-0
so proud of all of us !
well .. continue the hard work and yarrs.
anyway , went back to sch aft tht
played a short match with amanda yuai audrey lorraine winnie minfang
and well maybe othrs. thn whoever lose will treat the other team to drinks ! played for awhile and the winner was us !
thn ltr i saw how hot/amandaong plays the piano !
so pro man. lyk wht the hell. whn macs aftr tht thn went home
played some really stupid games in macs.
yarr. and today my sister really pissed me off !
cant stand her. the way she does thngs. so sickening.
but watch tv afterwards so im ok adi !
going out tmr with starrlets.
i think less thn a half.
but we gonna have good time !

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and i feel damn irritated by someone !
so fucking shit. two of them sumore.
lyk wht the hell. so no feelings.
so rubbish. why dun they just be together and stop hurting other
people's feelings. so inconsiderate !
treat her like trash or sumthng.
dun even consider her feelings and still dare to show upp.
hiaya. heaven wil deal with u all.
just wana say tht dun care abt them ..
knw you are having a hard time trying to forgt or sumthg
but must try ur best kae ?
if you dun forget the past how can u carry on ..
yarrs.

-

shall end here. byes ! :)

;my saviour; he's in me

Friday, July 2
8:01 pm

You are the sun tt shines in my darkness
-hahas

abigail kept saying tt phrase and i thought it was stupid
but thn it seems like it makes lots of sense.
:) anyways. today was BU day.
ok larh. not say very fun also.
thn had geog remedial at the mpr.
scored badly. but didnt fail.
went macs with seniors afterward thn went playgrnd thn went
macs agn. me and rui yin kepy reading the shui hu zhuan.
quite interesting. went amk central with jingyu ltr.
wanted to buy wristband for me audrey and yuai
but thn the colours all ..
and act the orange is quite nice but thn SOMEBODy
say canot copy her. so dun want.
i act like the grey and white one !
but thn its long. so we went j8 instead.
went to converse first and saw this VERY nicee shoe bag and shoe !
its grey and white ! hiax. love it alot.
thn went seiyu but all dun hae so went northopoint and finally
it has the colour i thot it was ok ! :)
so bought white in the end.
thn tok a bus home. thts about all i guess.
no wait - i bought a grey pencil box ! so cool rite.
at ice lemon tea. thn the lady said i can have another free one
cos got clearance sale. :) nice. so got a red one.
its soo cheap ! and somethng happened ystd.
so dissapointing ! -looks at yuai

;my saviour; he's in me